Thursday, December 31, 2009

mencintai

Kadangkala orang yang paling mencintaimu adalah orang yang tak pernah menyatakan cintanya padamu kerana orang itu takut kau berpaling dan menjauhinya. Dan bila dia suatu masa hilang dari pandanganmu….kau akan menyedari dia adalah cinta yang tidak pernah kau sedari….

Why we still love our ex- boyfriend/girlfriend?

Kenapa? Cinta itu sesuatu yang indah.pada setengah orang,sangat mudah jatuh cinta, pada setengahnya tidak.

Cinta itu indah.. it easy to love someone. But it’s really hard to forget the one we love.

Why???
Because with the one we love, we go through many things that we not do with our normal friends.
with the one we love, like there was butterfly flying in your stomach. Happy. Or maybe there no words can describe that feeling.

We still keep remember and display the memory with our ex.
keep feeling regret about things happen.

Regret??
It is ok to feel regret. But don’t let the feeling of regret ties you. This make you have no times to think about new love or even to get out of him/her. Think back why you broke down. Sometimes there was a mistake that one side parties done. Or even sometimes, both parties make mistakes. Normal for human to make mistake. We are not perfect. Then, think which parties lead to the broke up? If is not you, don’t hardly feel regret. It’s not your fault. But if both parties make the decision, you also cannot hardly feel regret.

Did you think, while you regret losing him/her, what he/she does? Loving other guy/girl? Having some fun or anything. Did you think that he/she also feel regret?

Don’t waste too much time to remember something that will give an effect to your life.

You are not a loser if you fail in love!!!
There are no fail and win in love. If there was fail and win in love, it looks like winning the one side heart in competition.

There are no fail and win in love!!
think deeply…
Allah has a right plan in our life.
Sometimes, we need to be hurt in order to make we realize something.
sometimes, we need to think that he/she was not the right one for you.
sometimes, some people will fall in love so many times before he/she found the one. But sometimes, some people just easy to found the right one.

Accept the fact that he/she not the one.
yes you can still love him/her, but not over do it.
open your eyes..
think wisely…

sweet gatal

Yesterday I accompany my friend to go shopping again. She brought us to Tanjung Rambutan. And as usual, after that we went to Tesco. We meet our ex-classmate during form 6.he worked at Tesco. We had a simple chit-chat and then we find things that my friend wants to buy. After that we went to food court. We want to eat sizzling mee. Haha. We had some funny incident there. After order we went to buy drink and put the drink at the table. I saw the cashier that the sizzling mee call us which mean that our order is ready. So we went to him. He cheats us. Our orders are not ready yet. My friends drop her money. Tetibe jer terjatuh. Dan dia melatah. The cashier and the cgef who cook our order laugh. Malunyer.. huhu. When my friend wants to pay, the cashier did not want to take her money. Saja nak usik kitorang semua. After he takes the money, he gave me the receipts and the balance. I accept it and make weird face. Apesal bagi kat aku?bukan duit aku la.. never mind.

Then while waiting our order, the cahier ask me, asal mana? Asal sini2 jer. Sini tu mana? Sini laa… ipoh ker? A’ah. Rumah kat mana? Tak payahla tau.

While he ask me, he look at my face. Seganlah.. so, tunduk jer lah.lagi tunduk, lagi dia ke depan and menjenguk dari bawah muka aku. Dalam hati,” aper kes mamat ni?”

When the chef put our order in talam, the cashier ask me,
kak..kenapa saya dengar jantung akak ni berdegup-degup?
kakak????cis..memang la berdegup. Kalo tak berdegup, matila akak.
tapi saya dengar len macam jer degupan jantung akak?terdengar sampai sini.
telinga awak silap tu. Bunyi jantung sendiri tu.

And then we take our order to the table and start to eat.

He still look at us. Memandangkan aku jer yang dok mengadap ke bahagian kedai-kedai tu, he smile and wink. Haha. Gatal betul. Buat malu aku jer. Sekejap-sekejap dia masuk dapur.pastu kuar blik. Then when we want to return home, dia lambai kat aku dengan senyuman manis. Huhu. Zstart dari tu aku kena usik ngan kawan2.haha. ditambah dgn perkataan “gigi”.

Maybe that our last sweet gatal memory before I went back to campus..

salah aku ker?

A texted me on 12;38am :31-12-2009
maaf. Sye sje x angkt.sy bosn la awk.ajak jpe x nk.. sy bosn brcnta ngn byg2..sy nk 1 hbungn yg reality..bukn fntasy..smpai bla hbungan ni nak cmni..

I read his message this morning and shocked. When was we fall in love? Aku kenal dia time raya hari tu, diary. kitorang berkawan jer. I admit that it was fun being his friend. Ada jer point dia nak mengenakan aku. Ada dlu dia cakap suka kat aku. Tapi aku kata, aku pun suka kawan dengan dia. Lebih dari kawan tak boleh la.. baru kenal jer pon. Dia pun setuju. Dia cakap nak jumpa aku dlu. Tapi sorry.aku bukan senang nak jumpa lelaki. Takott woo..hahah.

Berbalik kpd citer A td.. camner ek diary? selama ni aku anggap dia kawan jer.
sebab pada aku, berkawan lebih selesa buat waktu ni…dan aku takut bercinta.
dan pada aku.. bila persahabatan bertukar menjadi percintaan, akan hilang seri persahabatan tu. Apabila percintaan menjadi perpisahan, akan hilang lah dua perkara serentak.iaitu sahabat dan kekasih.

Salah kah aku kalo mengecewakan dia sedangkan kami tak pernah pon kata kami bercinta?
salah aku ker layan dia dengan baik kerana anggap dia sahabat aku?
salah aku ker?????

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

baik-baik sayang ^_^

Aku tak ingin kau menangis bersedih
Sudahi air mata darimu
Yang aku ingin arti hadir diriku
Kan menghapus dukamu sayang

Karna bagiku kau kehormatanku
Dengarkan dengakan aku


Hanya satu pintaku untukmu dan hidupku
Baik baik sayang ada aku untukmu
Hanya satu pintaku disiang dan malammu
Baik baik sayang karna aku untukmu

Semua keinginan akan aku lakukan
Sekuat semampuku sayang
Karna bagiku kau kehormatanku
Dengarkan dengakan aku


shopping time.

Yesterday I accompany my friends to buy things that she want to bring when she return back to her campus. Both of us want to buy shoes. So, we went to ipoh parade. Many shoes shop there. But there no type of shoes that we like because the designs are weird and the price are too expensive. Because of that, we went to greentown mall. We meet our school teacher. he was our discipline teacher and our prefect teacher. But we just had a little conversation because he was with his family. Luckily, there we found shoes that we like with reasonable price. Although the shoes not too attractive, but the reason I buy it because the design is not weird and like I said before, the price are reasonable. After that we went to tesco to eat. Huhu. At tesco we meet our ex classmate. He was a cashier there. Then we went to our friend house and bring her to meet our classmate at his workshop. Like weird talking to him. And after that we went to our teacher house. It was a wonderful day yesterday. Wonder when we can spend our precious time together..

you know diary, i found many clothes. very nice. and i like it. that clothes was well known as bju kurung moden or jubah moden. i want it so much! but as usual, i cannot get it. i dont bring enough money. but, i i got enough money, i will think very deep wether to buy it or not.huhu. maybe one fine day...

yep!!

one fine day!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

~JIKA AKU JATUH HATI~

Ya Allah…

jika aku jatuh cinta ya Allah,

cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan,

cintanya padaMu,

agar brtambah

kekuatanku untuk meyintaimu ya Allah.

Ya Muhaimin…

jika aku jatuh hati,

izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang

yang hatinya tertaut padaMu,

agar tidak aku

terjatuh dalam jurang cinta nafsu.

Ya Rabbana…

jika aku jatuh hati,

jagalah hatiku padanya

agar tidak aku

berpaling daripada hatiMu.

Ya Rabbul Izzati…

jika aku rindu,

rindukanlah

aku pada seseorang yang merindui

syahid di jalanMu.

Ya Allah…

jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihmu,

janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi

kenikmatan indahnya bermunajat

di sepertiga malam terakhirMu.

Ya Allah…

jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasihMu,

jangan..

jangan biarkn aku tertatih

dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang

yang menyeru

manusia kepadaMu.

Ya Allah…

jika Kau halalkan aku merindui kekasihmu,

jangan biarkan

aku melampaui batas sehingga

mleupakan aku pada cnita hakiki dan

rindu abadi hanya kepadaMu

Amin ya rabbal’ alamin…

doaku m0ga kita

sama2 berjaya dunia akhirat

berjaya dalam mengharungi segala

dugaan dan cabaran

yang sememangnya menguji kekuatan keimanan

kerana tapak iman itulah

yang menemukan cinta yang selama ini telah hilang.

semga cinta yang dicari telah ditemui

semoga Allah meletakkan kita

dibawah payung rahmat kasihNya

INSYA ALLAH…