He already has someone

Dear diary, yesterday he texted me. He said he wanted to give me chance to build up our relationship again. He said I need to call Sinar fm and talk to the dj, saying I’m sorry for everything I had done and I never want to cheat him. I never cheat him. He said if I don’t want, please forget our relationship. Why? Because he said he already found someone named Ana. He said Ana was a very good girl, came from Felda. He said that girls also being cheated by his boyfriend. So, I let him go diary. As I before, I also never have him after we broke up. When he gave me a chance, I did not grab me. Am I idiot, diary? He said he would be happy if being with Ana. So, I let him go with some hope that he would be happy with the good girl. And I hope that girl did not cheating him.

Mencintai tak bermakna kita harus memiliki.. Maybe I’m not the one for him.
Diary: always pray good things happen to him.

It is wrong?

Yesterday my family and I went to shopping together.yup! We had a lot of fun and of course feel so tired. Hehehe. We had some “keduri” at food court. Every time when I returned to my home town and every time when I was near to return to Shah Alam, my dad will bring us to have some “kenduri” at food court. It was a good moment that we spend together.

Diary, are you feel weird if you see me hold my mom or dad hand? Sometimes, when we hang out together, my sis and I will sometimes hold my dad and mom hand and even shoulder, sometimes. When we want to start eating, my dad will read doa. If there any teenagers near our table, they will stare at us. Stare at us like we had done some crime. Weird isn’t it?

I feel save when I hang out with my family. There no guy can usik-usik me. Huhu. And also I did not have to pay anything. Hehe.

LOVE YOU MOM!!
LOVE YOU DAD!!
LOVE YOU SIS!!

SUSAH SANGAT KER??

I feel I want to kick something. Huh. Jahatnyer aku. You know diary, I feel so dad and angry. It is about my friend. My friend and I asking her when she was free. I know it is difficult to meet her because she working at shop. We only ask her so that all of us can meet our beloved teacher. After waiting few days, she said she cannot meet us. Too busy and feel “segan” to meet our teacher. Segan because she did not continue study. I told her, no need to feel like that because now she have a good job and have car with her own name.

Actually, I don’t sad because of that. I feel angry and sad because why they make it is too difficult for us to meet them? We never ask them to buy something for us. Only meet! She said I her best friend forever. Is this what BFF for? I always there when she need me. But where was she when I need someone?

Sorry friend, I never forgot everything that you said. You had change. Too much change. I know we can’t ever be like the same before.

Diary, please make me remember of it.

Diary..
I’m afraid.. what will happen if what AKB said become reality? I don’t want it to become reality, diary.
You know why diary, if I become like that, I know that I will lost my friends who always be beside me. I don’t want to lose them. I love them. They are my mirror and my spirit. Without them, I totally feel lonely.

Diary, please make me remember of it. Please!!

Thankz to AKB because of knowing him make me realise something that I never know and never being told by others. That what friend for. Rite? ^_^